I haven't lost interest, its lost interest in me. These are gloomy days, and it could just be the hormones. I wish it were the hormones. It could also be that I get results for one test this week, and in three weeks I get the results for the big one.
I don't want to fail again. The fact of the matter is, I'm not dreading retaking the damn thing. The hardest part about it all is the fact that I feel like such a damn failure when I don't see my name on that list. It affects everything, and it feels like I'm proving all the naysayers, and it's the worst feeling in the world.
Damn it, I really should stop being such a coward and email the man at the EEOC too.
I'm stronger than this, but November kind of knocked me down a few pegs.

It was announced yesterday that Wonderfalls has been canceled. Courtesy of aintitcool. This sucks.

I needed a week of absolute apathy. Don't give a damn. Wham bam thank you ma'am. Just a week of dry heat, family ties, and movies galore both on the small screen and big screen. Call it denial, but so far I've enjoyed my vacation to my parent's house, and have I mentioned that A Perfect Circle is excellent in concert. I want to marry Maynard James Keenan's voice. That is all.

Surprise, surprise or maybe not. We knew filesharing wasn't such bad news. A new study reports that sharing between users has little to negative impact on cd sales. It would have to take about 5000 downloads to affect the sale of one cd, which equals a lot of downloads when you think about it.
Face it, music these days, especially mainstream, is just plain bad. The RIAA just doesn't listen. Filesharing on the otherhand is great. Afterall, I always thought it was a great way to discover new music and sample new albums before making the mistake of buying that cd with only one worthwhile song.

Pardon the mess, I'm going to be upgrading to MT 3.0 in alpha stage. There will be glitches, but damn I'm psyched.

True or False? Roosevelt County in Oregon has decided to stop issuing heterosexual marriage licenses until further notice. Their reasoning? They need to give the minority an opportunity to catch up!
I think it's brilliant and hilarious. Picture the conservative townspeoples' faces for a second, and bright red as a tomato doesn't even cover the description. There could be purple, and clenching fists, and heart attacks, if it were true.
See, the only downside to this story is that there's no citation, no proof. It's entertaining nonetheless.
Thank you Jack!

Findlaw had these wonderful articles that I wanted to comment on, and I'd like to say I was going to but my dog kept me from blogging. He sat on my lap and slobbered on me. Except I have no dog.
Actually I have something worse: the blue screen of death. I can be surfing away minding my own business, and suddenly it will hit without any warning. God forbid I be working on a layout. Then I'll really lose my hair. At least Word has an automatic save function.
The diagnosis is grim. I felt it in my gut, but the Best Buy tech confirmed it as he also gave me the bad news about having to confiscate my laptop for two to three weeks if I wanted a working A drive. I have a bad error. A really bad error. No duh Sherlock, I could have told you that.
A reformat is in order, and no I didn't give them my laptop. Not without backing up my information, which has entirely too much anime on the system. I just can't delete it! That and there's the whole thing with my writings, which are incredibly important. But the anime!
In all sincerity, how do I accumulate such junk. I'm like a bag lady on acid, and it's mildly amusing.

For some reason lists make me feel important and productive, so I'm making a new one. That and they're actually kind of fun. In reality, I'm just finding something different to stress about other than the fact that April is almost here, and after that May, and that means bar results. This all equals horrible amounts of anxiety. It's too early to start stressing about that, so I'd rather stress about something else.
- Find a job (volunteer basis, wouldn't mind clerking though I would love to get some litigation experience in. Have I mentioned, love.)
- I owe Katie something creative today. It may just happen since I'm all about angst. It has to be based on a song. I just don't know if it will be a poem or a short piece.
- The domain. Poor domain. It desperatly needs a face lift. I want to finish editing the pages first, and then I'll think about a new layout. I think the forum will be making a reappearance this week. I just need to organize the files.
- My personal site is my absolute priority along with this blog which needs a face lift. I've been playing with a few of MT's features, and rumor has it that version 3 will be out fairly soon. That will be cool. But what good is a blog if no one knows the person behind it? I miss my site. It was also quite extensive, which is probably why I've probably ignored it. I can't anymore. That and my AMC pages used to receive tons of hits. I have to get it up again.

Admittedly, there is a need to stop frivolous lawsuits especially in cases where parents are blaming McDonalds instead of themselves for their child's sudden increase in weight. Now comes a report from the Bush Administration claiming that these frivolous lawsuits were one of the reasons behind our current unemployment crisis.

"Lawsuit abuse is the ultimate disincentive for hiring new people," Snow said in prepared remarks to a closed session of the American Tort Reform Association. "The cost of doing business is substantially increased by a litigious environment."

Fact: A minority of lawsuits are frivolous, and the lawyers who bring such lawsuits are subject to discipline under the code.
Fact: Without the lawsuits there is one less avenue for regulation. Have we forgotten Enron so quickly.
If the government wants to protect small business then let it protect small business, but not at the detriment of the consumer. They have the right to sue. As for blaming the lawyers for the lack of jobs, well this is the same Bush Administration that claimed there were weapons of mass destruction in Iraq so what else is new.

I meant to announce this yesterday, but I was too busy being social or at least pretending to be.
The fellows formally from En Banc have a new weblog, De Novo, and it's fabulous. The symposium, which is the new addition to blog, is an excellant idea, and I might even submit to it if the topic seems right.
This weeks first symposium in particular has had me thinking about how well I'm prepared for "the outside." Coming from a law school that was so dedicated to bar classes and less on clinics and hands on experience other than the summer clerkships (because quite frankly employment during the semester was discouraged), the minute I get my license I won't know what to do with it. I do have clerkship experience and I'm happy that I took trial advocacy, and I was an avid competitor in mock trial, but it isn't real world.
Granted, I'm not paranoid about it because I learned quite a bit as a clerk, and after all these months of being unemployed studying for the exam I'm just dying to jump in and get my hands dirty in some kind of civil work, but I don't want to be blindsighted by it.
That and I did not go to the best school, but that's not a secret.